I Missed Myself. Until Today

I missed myself so much. My old self. The one that had zero deadlines, endless freedom and so much light in heart. 2016 is one of the best years in my life. After school and before university. My first outstation visit without parents. Exciting adventures. New friends. Now when I look back, I miss it. I miss it badly. I recall how free (and thin) I was. How ‘happy’ I was.

Until today. Today, I realised the beauty of life lies with ‘change’. Isn’t it so true? The now me is not the 2016 me. I am older, wiser and different. I have evolved. I cannot keep recalling better times and make comparisons for the present. My life is right now. This second. Not 2016 or 2061. I embraced myself. As it is now. No comparisons. No judgement. No regrets. I fell in love with myself. The now me. Not so thin me. The stressed me. The depressed me. And suddenly the light returned. And now I am happy again.